as days go today could be worse,but I’m not sure how,I’ve snapping all day at the better half over dumb and stupid things.I’m afraid that is how I cause most of the fights that we have.
My wife is a good person and I’m a good person,that somehow just does not get it right most of the time.
I guess the depression I feel causes the problems.that started in the service.I don’t give a damn if those shrinks that called themselves officers say it is a personality disorder. That is their pat answer for any one who does not fall in line,or cannot handle the stress of being in the military.
If I such a bad problem why did they let me into the USAF in the first place and allow me to serve 3 years,than decided that I’m unfit.What a laugh.All I can hope is that there is a space somewhere they end up going to where they themselves experience all the crap they have dissed out in their careers both in the service and outside of it.
If I come across as a little bitter,well I am.I served my country to the best of my ability.I just would not get down on my hands and knees and kiss the ass of those that had more stripes than I did and they felt that they deserved to have their ass kissed the same way they had to when they did not have stripes.I guess the saying absolute power corrupts absolutely does indeed apply here.
The supervisor I’m referring to was a Tech Sgt.At one point he told me that he did not like me and wished he could take me out back of the building and give me an ass whipping,the he felt I deserved just as it was done to him when he was in the service in the sixties.( at least that is what I’m guessing)He went on to further say I’m going to get rid of you.He did manage to do that,in the form of writing poor performance reports on me.That kept getting me pulled into the squadron commanders office and getting chewed out.Finally the commander said that I will not be allowed to reenlist.and about a month later I was being sent to the psychs office and being diagnosed as having a personality disorder even though that is not what that man said to me,he told me I was manic/depressive and that he will not give me any type of service connected disability. In stead his report read that I had a personality disorder that was prior service and that I should be separated from the service at my commander’s discretion,and so that is what was done to me.It did not matter that I did not drink prior service it did not matter that I dod not try to kill myself prior service.all this started while I was in the service and they have the guts to say all that was prior service.Oh I forgot that stuff was convienly not put in my records.so there fore it did not happen.