as the title says there are days that I get so mad when all I can do is ask for prayers for people.some of the links that I put up can be heart breaking.This is where I find myself tonight.
I know the pain that one of the ladies that I posted about.For the monster that she is talking about was me at one time in a different lifetime,before My soberiety came to me.I am not proud of the things I done,and I hope that god has forgiven me as I have asked for.I am glad that He is in my life now.I will continue to strive to make amends to God for my past sins.
I am now going to shut off this computer for the night,get ready for bed and say my prayers,and hope that I do not have a crying jag that I feel comming on.GOOD NIGHT GOD BLESS.
I hope you have a restful sleep. You certainly deserve it. Thanks for your prayer request for me, it brought great comfort.
Mike – if you have asked for forgiveness, you are not only forgiven, but God has wiped the slate clean and forgotten!It's great though that you are able to feel this empathy and pass on these prayer requests.
I am so sorry that you are having to endure this. Be assured that I know what you are going through. For I frequently have nightmares (sometimes, even while I am fully awake!) of things I have done in the past. Nonetheless, they help to remind me of what I have been delivered from.
I know who you are talking about here. That's your past Mike…let it go. You can't keep feeling the guilt when you've corrected the wrongs. You have changed your life for the better. Relish in that positive change. Just my two cents.Have a terrific day. Big hug. 🙂
Laura,you are welcome I'm glad that it helped you.Mari,thank you.Fishhawk,thank you for telling me this,I was thinking that I was alone in this.Sandee,most of the time I do relish the good Mike,not the bad.I also know that if I ever give into the devil and start drinking again that monster will be back.That is the part that scares me still.
Good for you for leaving that monster behind. It can't have been easy. And that's probably the understatement of the year (and 2009 as well). Best wishes.
Jakill,I know that if I EVER START DRINKING AGAIN THAT MONSTer will be back,and that scares me to no end.
Mike, it is one day at a time. I'm glad that you are here. Rest knowing that you are sober and that's good.
Syd,thank you for that.