back in the late 70’s or Early 80’s there was a book written called “I’m dancing as fast as I can”,I read this book and I took a lot of good ( I had a different word here and i knew I spelled it wrong but even spell check could not figure out the correct spelling)from it.it helped me through a bad spot in my life.I probably need to read something like that again. I know that I read it in between my failed marriage and my successful one. I’m glad that I have my loving wife and family to help me through this rough road that I’m on again.If the feelings get any worse I’ll probably will need to be hospitalized.My wife just said the we will get threw this,it is a struggle that I have fought before and did end up hospitalized because of the attempts made.God please help me.