A though and or a confession

THERE IS NO GETTING AROUND THIS: SINCE THE MIDDLE OF AUGUST I HAVE BEEN IN A DARK PLACE I MOST LIKELY WILL NOT EMERGE FROM THIS PLACE UNTILL AFTER 16 OCTOBER 2022. THESE ARE THE MONTHS THAT MY BELOVED CELESTINE WAS SLIDING DOWN HILL UNTYIL HER PASSING FROM KIDNY FAILURE. OCTOBER 15TH, SHE HAD TAKEN A TURN FOR THE WORSE SHE SLIPPED INTO A COMA, AND BOTH MYSELF AND HER SISTER WERE NOTIFIED,JOSEPHINE CAME WITH HER MOTHER TO THE HOSPICE FACILITY AND SO DID I. AT 8 PM JOSEPHINE SAID TO ME I THINK I NEED TO TAKE MA HOME AND I AGREED. HER MOTHER PANICIED THINKING THAT NO ONE WAS GOING TO BE WITH CELESTINE AND I SAID I AM STAYING RIGHT HERE WITH HER ALL NIGHT. IN THE MORNING YOU CAN COME BACK AND I’LL GO HOME TO REST. AT MIDNIGHT THE MORNING OF THE 16TH, SHE WAS STILL ALIVE.I HAD CHECKED ONE HER JUST BEFORE GOING TO THE BATHROOM. i THINK THAT IS WHEN SHE PASSED AWAY. I DID NOT CHECK ON HER WHEN I CAME OUT OF THE BATHROON AND FELL ASLEEP ON THE RECLINER THAT WAS IN HER ROOM. AT 130 AM I HAD TO GO TO THE BATHROOM AND DID NOT CHECK ON HER. WHEN i CAMOUT BOTH HER NIGHTIME CAREGIVES WERE IN THE ROOM THEY SAID SHE HAD PASSED AWAY. CELESTRINE ASKED TO BE BURIED IN HER WEDDING DRESS. HER SISTER CAME TO OUR CONDO WE GET IT OUT SHE SAID IT NEEDS TO BE DRYCLEANED AND THAT SHE HAD A DRYCLEANING KIT SO SHE TOO IT HOME DRYCLEANED IT AND WHEN WE WENT TO MAKE THE ARRAINGEMENTS SHE BROUGHT HER DRESS AND I BROUGHT HER WEDDING RINGS AND A BLUE TOPAZ RING THAT WAS HER FAVORITE. AND THAT IS HOW SHE WAS LAID TO REST.