Let me introduce you to the elephant in the room, it has been a week since I tried to kill myself by overdosing on my psyche medications. One week ago today just about an hour from now, I took about 20 pills of Lamotrogine and 20 pills of Citropram. I almost died this time. I spent part of the day in the emergency room, then I spent the next 24 hours in the ICU. On Tuesday they transferred me to the CCU, on Wednesday they did a heart catheration on me wanting to see what kind of damage I did. Fortunately they did not find any blockages, they are not sure what kind of damage I did to my heart. That will take some more tests to determine. Needless to say I am grateful for surviving my attempt. I have been off ALL of my different medications that I have been taking and I am doing real good. Maybe the different cocktail of medications were contributing to some of the depression that led to my attempting to take my own life. BOTTOM LINE OF THIS POSTING IS THAT I AM GRATEFUL TO BE ALIVE, FEEL BLESSED TO SURVIVED MY ATTEMPT, AND ACCEPT FULL BLAME FOR MY STUPIDITY.